I haven't been writing. More accurately I've been avoiding writing. Even more honest, I've been avoiding processing and dealing with difficult events in my life. If I don't write about them, I am only forced to address them as much as life requires. If I don't write, I don't have to swim in my feelings. I can just go on.
The problem with this logic, I can't seem to go on. I can't just skip over them and write as if they didn't occur. To do so feels as if I'm lying.
Do you solemnly swear that you will tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, so help you God?
I will tell the whole truth. On the 8th, I had to take Ellie to the vet to be euthanized. My mother's birthday was this past Saturday. I haven't had the words or the energy to write about either. But both deserve a proper post. I will give them this much. I will tell their story in their own separate posts. I do solemnly swear.
I'm so sorry about Ellie. For what it's worth, it takes more strength, courage and love to make the decision to euthanize a pet than it does to just let nature take its course. You are an amazing woman, and I look forward to reading your posts whenever you feel up to writing them. Until then, know that you have my support and virtual hugs whenever you need them.
ReplyDeleteOh, I am so sorry. It's so hard losing pets. They're family. It sucks. You are in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. I know how you feel, it was so hard for me when Athens died and I felt almost silly being so upset. But he was more than a dog. He was my first child essentially.
ReplyDeleteI'm here for you if you ever need me. xo.